Is sometimes not the face you expect. I look in the mirror every day, expecting to see normalcy. And then I laugh... because I'm so far left of normal that I'm out of the ball park.
As I stare into my own eyes, I check off my faults, issues and phobias... and then I amaze myself by not breaking down and crying. How does a person cover up such damage?
I have an eating disorder. I'm a recovering alcoholic. My self esteem can't get any lower than it already is. I have a HUGE need to feel validated by other people every waking moment. I'm clingy and obsessive. I have anger issues.
Yet I LOOK normal. It's just when I stare into my own eyes that I see the damage.
The face of disorder... sometimes you never know.
4 comments:
Awww, Tig! Normal is fiction. It's an overrated goal that not one person can reach. Some of us are just more INTRESTING than others, which is NOT always a bad thing.
It's not the phobias and disorders that you should count. It's the people who love you. Cuz, baby, we far outnumber your imperfections!
Normal is highly over-rated and often boring.
Your "quirks" make you unique and fun.
Now BLOG woman.
normal, like security or control, is an illusion.
i'm available for Text Therapy ;)
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